Brianne's Blog

Feeling overwhelmed

2010-04-10T23:47:58Z

I am still maintaining my current loss of 24 pds give or take but I don't feel in control! I plan to add 3 weekely workouts mon-weds-fri this week with my friend but I do not think I have been focused on healthy balanced and portion conscious meals.. Feeling overwhemlmed but not defeated I know I can do better than this.. I am not mad at myself but I am learning about myself!! I am sure you ladies can understand especially around ** that time of the month** Iam just feeling yucky! I feel like I gained it all back when clearly that did not happen! I also took out most caffenine in my diet b/c I think it is causing High B\P and that has been A really hard thing. I am getting used to Decaf its not so bad.. Im letting go of this not so good week and starting fresh Sunday!! HAVE A GOOD WEEK BUDDIES!!

Inside and Outside.... They Both Matter!!!

2010-03-24T23:43:13Z

Well sometimes It is hard to say it but we all probably think it... What we have inside is very important but what is outside is important too.. it does not define who we are but it does have an impact on our self confidence and our relationships and our first impressions. Here is what I have learned recently... I embrace my flaws because I will always have them, come on, we all do.... But I really commit to shaping my figure to make me feel great inside and out! I have lost to date approx 24 pounds its been 3 weeks or so and I am feeling good.. I also do not get down on myself when I give into a craving because I can eat anything I want just not the same portions I used to... I love feeling more confident when people look at me! I really only eat when I am hungry and I am very cautious of my surroundings food wise. Its kinda fun when friends offer you snacks and you say " No thx Im good" !! I am the one in controll and I love It! Proud to be Curvy and Loving it!
I Hope everyone is well!! Have a great week all !!
Brie

Keep on Truckin'

2010-03-12T15:30:43Z

My best friend and I love going to have Sushi. Last night after hanging out we decided to grab a bit to eat around 6 pm. I was really scared the 1st time out of my element. At home things are pretty predictable. How was I going to manage. Could I ward off the beast known as deep fried goodness....

I actually ate what I wanted In small portions and really enjoyed my time with my friend. I went home and did not eat another meal just a light snack and was fine.

****I weighed in this morning and I am down about 10 pds total its been about 1 1/2 weeks now*****. I am really happy that I am committed to this because it is paying off. My hunger is not out of control anymore and I feel really good!

I wish you all a great weekend!

Finally in control.. This is for me no one else!

2010-03-10T14:22:13Z

Just like a light bulb going off today I truly found out that weight loss only works when you are committed to the process for no one else but yourself. I was in no way ready for this transformation until recently. Fear kept me from trying to better myself. I was also not thinking about the long term. What I was doing to my health until, I was starting to see my mom become seriously ill. I was so angry that she could have prevented all her illness by not smoking and not drinking heavily. This was a choice she made. I remember her telling me she would quit when she was ready now it is to late. It is not for me!! I will be healthy I do not plan to be skinny. I like being curvy but I will not feed my body toxic junk that is going to destroy me!

Great News week one With a great diet and activity I am Down...5 Pds. The first day was horrible I swear I had withdrawls in the middle of the night but I feel victorious and motivated!!I understand that some days are going to be a struggle, WLB is a great outlet for me and anyone on this journey!! Just remember " There is no such thing as Failure, just Feedback. Learn from the mistake and move on."

Reality.... Check Please...

2010-03-05T01:41:18Z

I have never been skinny and I don't think I would want that, but I most certainly did not ever wish to be a joke for all society. Its hurts when people say things obvious.. I can't blame people I am that Fat girl with such a pretty face..I want to be a mom so bad but refuse to get pregnant fat.. I want to wear clothes with out covering up so i dont feel discusting.. I am tired of worrying If I can fit in a booth at a restaurant..

I had a doctors appointment for my yearly pap exam. I was so ashamed I cried when I was on the table my blood pressure shot thru the roof and I wanted to just die... then the DR. advised me I had gained some weight.... THANKS A BILLION DOC.. as if I did not know..

I Refuse to have a surgery to correct my weight I am not lazy and I am fully capable of loosing the weight.. or so I tell myself this... Sounds a lot easier in the head.. Sometimes I cry when I look at myself or wish I would not wake up..

I do not want to embarass my family and friends... most of all I just want to be healthy so I can do things like travel, shop, get married have babies and NOT BE SEEN AS OBESE~~~~~ WOW That is a Yucky word~~~~~!!