Well here I am, writing a blog for the first time about weight loss I'm attempting for the third. I'm not even sure if anyone will come across this or not but it's probably a good idea to keep my thoughts in some sort of written format so I can go back over them from time to time.

Two years ago I had a major life changing experience in my divorce and I was the heaviest I had ever been in my life, I weight in at 253 and I had enough with low self esteem and avoiding mirrors. Weight loss was my first goal to a better me, one I could be proud of again and one that I wouldn't be ashamed of when others saw.

Everything went well, I got down to 213, I was the lightest I had been in years and was feeling great, I had more energy and all was going well until I moved and got a job where I sit most of the time. Over the course of about 18 months I put  about 20lbs of that back on getting up to 233 before I said enough was enough and began again.

That wasn't overly long ago, about 2 or 3 months ago and I got down to about 218 before somehow falling back out of that routine and now I'm back to 233.

Enough is enough, my family is riddled with health problems and I have two wonderful kids with one on the way that I want to be around for, for years to come. I need to get control of my eating habits, the major problem I have is I work a lot and am in teh habit of eating one very large meal a day, sometimes followed up by a snack I wash it down with small amounts of soda, I drink mostly water when at home.

I need to go back to what I was doing before and eating 4 to 5  small meals a day, start off with a small glass of OJ and then hit water the rest of the day. I need to bring portions back under control, using smaller plates and eating slow to allow my brain to register when I'm actually full. I need to start going for nightly walks again and having them eventually turn into runs when I am more in shape. (one thats not as round as the one I'm in now currently. )

It's time to get a handle on life and get it under control, I'm not getting any younger and it's surly not going to get any easier.

Tomorrow is a new day, a new beginning and the start of a new me. Tomorrow I will take my first steps, for the third time.....for the last time.