i keep walking into the kitchen...im hungry.  i just go in and pace back and forth.  i know i need to eat something...but what?  what can i have that wont stall my loss. 

i know i know, eating is important.  but at what point is my goal more important?  right now i'm just stalling.  i dont want to eat anything specific...just to eat. 

i think i might just go run instead...delay the inevitable. 

The thing i think i hate about dieting the most is that i feel so lonesome while doing it.  I know i am not dieting in a healthy way, and thats fine with me.  it'll be worth it when i reach my goal.  but because im not doing it right, i kind of want to hide the extents that i am going to.  the right way would be to reorganize my life and completely concentrate on eating healthy things, not concentrate on calories and grams of fat. 

but counting things acheives faster results, and thats kind of what im goign for.  so here i am, im doing pretty well on my diet, but feel lonesome.  On christmas, 3 weeks ago (give or take a few days) i weighed 307 lbs.  Today i weighed 277, and that is after a night of drinking (which must have been a bunch of calories i didnt need).

Im going to meet my goal.  I will i will i will.  i just wish it was as easy to take the weight off as it was to put it on.