September 2010 Blog Posts

I used my light box today and feel so much better. I also went for a 20 minute walk and feel good about that. I should be in bed now but find myself still up! Still constantly hungry and gaining weight. This is just the start, hope to do well again tomorrow.

It seems as though my weight is not under my control. Having CFS and depression just makes me want to eat all the time and eat the wrong foods too. I don't know if I'm really willing to suffer in order to lose weight. I've suffered enough already. However I don't want to be fat. I wish I could turn the clock back five years when I was at a good weight. Part of me has the urge to start vomiting to control my weight but I don't want to do that either. Whenever I go to eat junk food...