It seems as though my weight is not under my control. Having CFS and depression just makes me want to eat all the time and eat the wrong foods too. I don't know if I'm really willing to suffer in order to lose weight. I've suffered enough already. However I don't want to be fat. I wish I could turn the clock back five years when I was at a good weight. Part of me has the urge to start vomiting to control my weight but I don't want to do that either. Whenever I go to eat junk food I feel good about it until I've finished eating it and then I just feel regret. Healthy food leaves me feeling unsatisfied. I don't really see an answer. I know I eat out of my unhappiness and since this illness is not going to go away how can I lose weight?
posted @ Thursday, September 02, 2010 1:22 AM