Hey there, I am so sorry to hear you have so much stress in your life right now! As a mom I can relate to not being able to just let go! THe one thing I can tell you is that you can make sure she knows how you feel and that she can come home whenever, but that you have to be strong for yourself. It sure is easy for the rest of us to say things like, let go and let god or if you love her, let her go. But at some point you have to put your health and peace of mind first. I have found that talking to someone or simply writing in my journal or even here on the blog, feels tons better. You need an outlet, a way to release that stress. If you are a prayer warrior, I offer you my shoulder. Anytime you want to chat, feel free to send me a message! You should not feel alone, that makes things worse. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and I hope that you find at least some way to let those bad vibes and thoughts out of your system. God has not left you alone. Be safe and don't lose faith.