Hi I am brand new to the site and blogging. So if I don't reply it isn't because I don't care it's because I am trying to navigate the site. It might take a little time. With that being said, here is my blog.

Tired - tired of dieting, exercising, counting calories, tired of being tired. Tired of losing the weight, keeping it off for years only to have it creep back up. Tired of fighting urges to eat. Tired of being fat, not wanting to go to the beach (my version of heaven). GET IT I'M TIRED NO MATTER WHAT DIRECTION I GO IN. I am so confused I don't know what I want.

Every morning I wake up and say I will get it done today. Every night I am not exercising once again, every night I'm eating more than I should. Yet inside I can't give up or the 60 pounds I have to loss will be 150 pounds within a year. I feel like I am falling off a cliff in slow motion into a bottomless pit and there is not way but to scratch my way back to the top.

I can't do it alone. I don't have it. I need support. I know it. That is why I am here.

The last time I was this weight 210 and got down to 150 I did it with an on-line support / chat room. I kept that weight off for 5 years. I have always had to diet I started weight watchers at the age of 12 I am now 50 and want to be fabulous. I have great support at home just not inner motivation. Hubby loves me no matter what, yes it is a blessing but not much for motiviaton.

Okay I am rambling now so I will leave my fatigue in your hands if any "buddie" wants to help me pick myself up and make me accountable one day at a time I am looking for some support and am willing to give it. Thanks.