Tammy's Blog

Cruel World!

2010-02-18T14:30:58Z

Perhaps it is only because I'm dieting and more "aware," but it seems the last few days have been insult after insult to obese people! Last night, I was watching an episode of "Manswers" (my Dad calls and asks me to watch... if I didn't love him and understand this gives him something to talk about I WOULD NOT WATCH!) and one of their questions was "Why shouldn't a man hunt for hotties on an empty stomach?" The answer was "because a hungry man will find fatties more attractive" and they paraded out this very large, over-the-top woman as a visual aid. It made me mad! They often use the word "fatty" as if to say any overweight chick is bottom of the barrel pickings and no man should want her! Since my dad doesn't really see me as a "fatty," I guess it doesn't dawn on him that shows like that hurt my feelings.

Then this morning, I was listening to a local radio host reading random emails from listeners. One was from a lady who complained about having to sit on a plane beside an obese woman. Ok... complained is an understatement! She referred to the lady as "Fat Smelly Girl" and her beef was that the obese woman's thigh was so fat that it rubbed up against her thigh and she was basically crowded out of her seat. She was upset that the flight attendant did not acknowledge the problem and offer to move her. What's more, the obese passenger asked this B**** what there was to do in Greensboro (where they were landing) and she replied, "L.A. Weightloss!" By this time, the radio staff were completely on the side of the complaining passenger and said we should demand that all fat people have to buy two or three or however many seats would be required for us to sit in. THEN... they have someone from the airlines call in and start complaining about what a problem it is for flight attendants to try and accomodate obese people and basically said attendants in general hate to see them coming, hate dealing with them, and wish they wouldn't fly, period! I was FURIOUS! It wasn't approached as a "here's a sensitive issue... how can we deal with it sensitively"... it was all-out, no holds barred, attack fat people for flying hour.

Just had to vent that.

Time Out

2010-02-08T22:44:38Z

I've taken a couple days off from flabness to deal with the madness, ha, ha. We had a really bad snow/ice storm that knocked out power, downed some big honkin' trees (no structure damage) and everything just seems chaotic right now. Took a little breather and getting ready for possible freezing rain AGAIN tomorrow. Meanwhile, I'm couped up with pizza, hot wings, and 7-layer dip and chips left over from super bowl. Trying to be strong, but I think I'll postpone weighing in a couple days for the sake of the team cause I have had a couple weak moments. The team, though, has lost a WHOPPING 34 lbs! GO WAIST MANAGEMENT!

More White Stuff

2010-02-05T11:54:54Z

Now how am I supposed to lose weight when the snow keeps piling up, trapping me inside with all this food! Awoke to another 3 in of snow this morning, supposed to rain the rest of the day, then change over to freezing rain and ice tonight. What a mess!

Easy Day

2010-02-04T22:35:45Z

Today was a much easier day than yesterday. I have days were I don't have much of an appetite and save having to eat to combat hypoglycemia, I could probably go all day without even a bite of something. If only that happened often, ha, ha! Tomorrow I'll probably do the opposite and not be able to "get full." As expected, I was back down 3 lbs. this morning. I didn't have overly puffy eyes or hands so it was a "good" edema day, if there is such a thing.

I talked my husband and one of my friends into signing up here, too, and we've started a team! I'm trying desperately to get my daughter to join, but she's quite content with the weight she is. Or at least that's what she says. My thinking is, you won't lose weigh until you "want" to lose weight so I'm not going to push the issue. Not sure how "motivated" my husband is going to be either.

Still... I'm here, I'm committed, and I'm happy to have found such a great site!

Oops... forgot about the edema.

2010-02-03T10:22:15Z

Forgot about another challenge I'm facing... EDEMA! We haven't figured out why yet, but since last summer I've been retaining fluid and have pitting edema in my lower legs 24/7 and accumulations of fluid in my hands and face --around my eyes. Some days are worse than others and it is unresponisve to diuretics at this point. I can work around this by focusing on total weightloss for the month instead of daily weight gains and losses, I think. It was still disappointing to get on the scales this morning and see that I've gained three pounds. I'll just remind myself that it is likely the same three pounds that I will pee back out at some point today, ha, ha. Probably at the most inconvenient moments, too!

Day 1: Bad Start

2010-02-03T10:02:12Z

It is only the first day and I'm already off to a horrible start. My husband had to pick mom up from work this morning (icy roads we have the only 4-wheel drive) and on their way back, they stopped by Burger King... UGGHHH! I told myself I would only eat half of the sausage/egg/cheese croissant and just a few hashbrowns, but I sat there and ate the whole thing! Guess that means I need to starve for the rest of the day?

This is new!

2010-02-02T12:48:29Z

I've been bouncing back and forth between seriously trying ot lose weight and putting it off for this and that. I really believe I just need some accountability and support. If I had "will power" I probably wouldn't have gotten so fat in the first place, right?

So far this all seems really interesting. Sort of a Facebook meets Wordpress thing. Both of those I love, by the way. Let's see how it goes!